Embraced By Madness

"Are you lost sir?", he asked... "Have I really lost my mind?", I whispered... (Blood in my hand.) Then I stayed looking at the broken pieces of the mirror. The broken pieces of my heart...

It's been a year since you left... So much time, so fast, but still... I can't think of anything else, I can't forget, I just can't... How I wish you were here standing next to me like nothing's happened.. I miss you.. Your voice, your smile, your eyes, your every single move... I wonder, do you dream of me? Do you feel the same? Do you remember me? Am I still in your head? Was it all for fun?... So many question with not even an appeasing answer.. Not even a fake one to make me feel at least better for a while.. But I'm still waiting holding faith carefully in my lonely hands...
Yesterday as I was walking through the streets of sorrow I heard a little bird talking about you.. It said that you've been doing fine, that you made your life and you still keep that smile on your face.. But I guess this time is for someone else...
I left, I couldn't stay to hear anymore, I couldn't stand it.. Cryin'?... No I won't cry, maybe 'cause I'm too old for this, but I'd rather bury the tears in my heart 'till I'm slowly drowned inside.. Painfully and silently.. And you'll never learn... How much I loved you, how hard it was to live with this.. How hard is... To feel...
So, now I don't even know how to play my part right.. Well, it seems you've past so much in your life that my pure magic wasn't enough to keep you with me.. And I know I'll never be able to accept this and face the truth, I know I'll never be able to say goodbye.. This simple, but so hard word to say.. Even for me... I'll always be thinking, dreaming, asking... Why..? Why it has to be this way... And believe this, even after a thousand years I'll still feel the same.. I'll always love you, do you hear me? Always... And that's the worst part of me.. You...

"...Just give me another drink now mister and let me end my story please..."
...It was an unforgettable night.. 'At least I hope that you made the right choice and you won't regret this someday', I told her and then I left the room.. I still remember her eyes looking at me trying to say something in vain...
"...Um, excuse me sir, what is your name you said?... ...Do I know you from somewhere?... ...Just leave me alone at last..."